Thursday, March 22, 2007
♥ Will never be the same
I promised*
cross finger* myself that this will be my last post about this thingy. I hope so.
The almost 8 years that we had spent together will be wasted just like that.
From a dearest friend that I need every second, every minute, every hour.......will never happened again.
It hurt to accept the fact that things won't get back to its original track.
But on the other hand, I'm sick and tired of hoping for something that will never happen and waiting for something that will never come.
You used to me on my first priority list. The first to be updated about every single thing.
But now, everything is gone just like that. We're more like an acquaintances now.
You chose the path that you wana go. You lead your life the way you want it to be.
Sometimes hearing about you hurts me down inside but thinking back, why should I hurt myself when you're doing just fine now. The way you want it. And I can't do anything about it infact I'm no longer needed in your life now.
I've never imagine that we will end it this way. After all the promises we made to each other that we'll always be by each other's side. Imagining during our old days which we'll still be like the good all days. All that dreams is gone now.
I don't know who to blame. I do blame myself for not taking care of you. If only I could turn back time, I don't want that day to happen.
I cried out loud deep inside me every single time I think about us. Even though I tried very hard not to think about it.
How I missed the good old days. After every lunch that I will always call you and bitch about everything. The day that we cried and laughed together. I missed your hugs and kisses.
I thought after getting the cat out of the bag, everything will get back to normal but I was wrong. It turn out from bad to worst.
My heart shattered seeing you change into someone that I don't know.
That day when I met you. I was speechless. I don't even have anything to talk about with you.
Dearest You,
I hope you're happy with what you're doing now. I'm done waiting for you and I gave up now. But whatever happen in the near future, I'm still one call away from you.
I've never hated you but I was dissapointed.
And lastly, you're irreplaceable.
I love you.
